After making my first post, I went out with my friends and ultimately decided that I would "only smoke with my friends, and not in the house anymore". I thought it was a step, not blazing my my house, but I realized I was only subconciously creating an excuse for myself to keep smoking. Yesterday, I went out again and smoked at my friend's house. This time, the high was very wierd.. very intense. I thought the weed was laced, but my friends told me they didn't feel anything wierd. I guess I had a mini panic attack as a result of my guilt, and my overall stress in life. I experienced psychosis, felt like everything around me was so surreal. I couldn't even hold a proper conversation with my friends, and had to think of an excuse so I could get into my car and be alone for a bit. I believe this is my body's way of telling me that it's enough. I can't go on smoking like this.
I'm finished.
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